I know she loved me and I loved her too. It's a different kind of grieving than I could have imagined though. I suppose I had held some hope that she would have an epiphany and want to be in my life or my kids' life. But it didn't happen and now there's no chance of it ever happening. That chapter is closed. Perhaps it is time to get down to business and do what I've been meaning to do for nearly 20 years now. Time to tell a story, even if only to myself.